Mace v.1.3.10

So I signed up for this online workout program, and I’ve been trying it with varied enthusiasm. I’m very good at finding excuses. Every week there is a reading assignment, and a writing assignment, to get a better look at your lifestyle and how it affects your weight. This week, I’ve decided to post it on my weblog and share with everyone what I like and don’t like about myself physically. This could be really interesting or really boring. I have no idea, really.

From the website:
“This is where I am today. This represents my life. I could be better. I could be worse.”
Starting from the top of your head, I want you to notice each feature of your face: forehead, eyes, nose, mouth, and chin– every detail. Then move to your neck, shoulders, torso, and lower body. Make a mental note of those things that you particularly like about yourself…and those things you don’t like. Differentiate between those you can change and those you cannot. Understand that the things you cannot change serve a purpose in your life. Things you can change are both challenges and opportunities. Throughout this exercise, keep in mind that the image you see in the mirror reflects not only how you treat yourself-for example, what you eat and how much you exercise-but also all the choices you have made to create your life.

This is Mace:

I really have no qualms about my forehead, especially since the new bangs cover most of it. I’ve always liked the shape of my eyes – they’re a little small, but I cannot change that, that’s genetics. There are makeup tips to make your eyes look larger, but it’s not that important to me. I’d rather focus on the shape. I also love my nose. I thought I got it from my mother’s side, but since all four Mamlok daughters have the same nose, I suppose it’s from my father’s. It’s definitely a button nose. I was once told that I didn’t have a chin. In fact, Nick Ohanian used to tease me all the time in high school about my chin-lacking. I proved him wrong when I weighed my heaviest, since then I had more than one chin. I worry about what my chin may look like in the future if I don’t loose weight. I’m no fan of the waddle. I have a very prominent jaw line. It’s part of my big square head, as I like to refer to it. I bemoan it often – I think it makes me look larger than I am. I have a hard time choosing hairstyles that don’t accentuate the squareness. But lately I’ve realized that it makes me look unique. There aren’t a lot of other girls out there with big square heads. And again, it’s nothing I can change without going under the knife. And who wants to do that? Shudder.

I only notice and think about my neck in dance class. We’re constantly being told to keep our shoulders down, to lengthen our necks. I think after years of that, I’m pretty good at keeping my neck long, and therefore it comes out graceful. I like my shoulders and arms, too. I started lifting weights, and I saw an almost immediate improvement there, though not so much in other areas. Like most women, I worry about the area under my arm – but I also figure I have at least fifteen years before it gets truly worrisome. My back is also a feature I like. I should show it off more.

Everyone knows I have great breasts.

Sigh. We’re getting into harder territory now. I love a slight pooch on a girl, but mine is a little too poochy. It’s hard for me to wear dresses, or find pants that fit right. The ratio of waist (just right) to tummy and hips is so skewed that it’s virtually impossible for me to find a pair of pants that doesn’t make me self-conscious. At least, as I loose weight, the pooch is shrinking and so are the hips. I should also add that I LOVE having hips. When I was young, I was thin, but I was built like a boy. I’m much happier now, being curvy, than I ever was then. Due to some growth spurts and yo-yo weight, my hips and upper thighs are covered in a light web of stretch marks. I hate them, but there’s not much I can do about it. I notice that they’re less noticeable when tanned, but really, how often does anyone get to see my hips exposed anyway? My butt is large, but well shaped. I’m hoping some of that stays if I loose more weight. I can’t stand a skinny girl with no ass.

My legs are a little thick. This is another thing I’d like to improve, which can improve with effort. My feet? Well, I’m not foot model, but I can walk around in flip-flops without a thought.

I think that’s it. Reading over what I just wrote, it seems that I like most of the stuff that I can’t change, and dislike between my belly button and knees. But as I continue to work and loose more weight, these problems shouldn’t be so bad. Wow. This is totally cheesy, but I do feel better about myself, and I do feel motivated to keep moving. I think I’ll go take a walk!

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